Fluff

Mundanity seems to be a good word for today. I'm off work and spent some time with hubby...I need a good name for him so I don't have to keep referring to him as just "hubby." In light of his interest in horror and zombie movies maybe I'll go with the moniker Romero after a popular director he enjoys. IDK. At any rate in addition to spending a quiet morning watching Star Trek I got my grocery shopping done. Finding habanero peppers for hot sauce might have been the highlight of the trip since I live in an area where they aren't always readily available.

I'm still not feeling any closer to a decision, but right now my head isn't actually spinning as hard about everything. Granted, I have a ton of other stuff on my mind as well...much of it relating to my body issues which are their own mess entirely. But they are getting better with time.

My identification as gay hasn't changed since this all came out into the open and I don't think I can put it back, no matter what I choose to do. It's still part of who I am. And I have to come to terms with that no matter how hard it is, no matter how much I sometimes wish otherwise.

R