Time marches on

So I have been doing my best to take the major changes in my life in stride. I'm not upset about things. I'm not jealous because my husband is moving on with his life and I want him to be happy. I am a bit sad as this period comes to an end and I think the first night or two alone might be hard. But in the end that's how life goes sometimes. Everything changes and time marches on. Now if a pretty girl marched her way into my bed I would be ok with that....except that it has been so long that I dunno if I remember how with another woman...I would ask if anyone wanted to give me lessons but I don't think I have an audience. Please say hello if I do. :)

R

Years

So today is my 9th wedding anniversary. I have been running around like crazy trying to get things done and stay busy. In light of the recent events I just don't feel that trying to do something to mark this milestone is the best idea. I'm already struggling with my decision because while I know I made the right choice, the right choice isn't always an easy one. Tomorrow I am probably going to bite the bullet and finally make that phone call that I keep putting off. But for now, I'm just going to make it one day at a time. I am sad to see my marriage end, but I honestly feel that one of these days both Romero and I will see that we are better off as friends and we will never regret these nine years, but this is what has to be. That doesn't mean its easy and I am so grateful that he still cares for me and that we can be friends.

5/13/2012

I'm really struggling with being so far from my mom today because I really need her now, even if she doesn't know it. It's times like this when the distance is so very hard. I love you, Mom...

R